Supposed to be done

Well here I am in class typing what I assumed would be my last blog. I wasn’t planning to continue writing here. But it’s kind of nice to get my thoughts down. I know no one is reading what I write, and no one cares. But I just like knowing there is always something I can do. Maybe ill start writing poetry again. I don’t know. Well either way I think I’ll just keep up writing on here.

Today is going to be a long day. I’m supposed to have a paper done, and superhero drawn (extremely dumb assignment). Then I  have to get my social security card, and call on a ticket I got from a car accident.  I still cant believe I have a ticket. Vehicles really just hate me. I need to start walking everywhere. Maybe then I wont have so many issues with them. Oh, well Goodbye for now!

Today

Today was just a long day. I had an English midterm, and then a Spanish test. Then I got to sit and basically do nothing for about three hours. It was an absolute blast…NOT. I guess calm can be good though. After class today I went to the chiropractor, and ladies and gentlemen I can breathe again. Woo hoo! Well, at least I can for a few days till my ribs go out of place again. Then I went back to school to hang out with some people for a few hours. Where I managed to trip, give myself a bloody nose, and successfully sing an entire musical. Which I have recently discovered is a very quick way to annoy people. Then I came home, and my cat decided to claw my leg which is now bleeding oh joy. It’s a miracle I’m still alive with the amount of blood I manage to lose each day. O well I’ve got to go finish other homework.

Tired

I’m tired. Ridiculously tired. Not just sleepy tired either. My body and my mind are worn out. I can’t concentrate or get anything done. I wish I would stop disappointing people. I wish I didn’t fail at everything I do. I can’t figure out what is so terrible about me. But there is something I know. Its terrible. I’m ready for something good to happen. Really good. And I’d love if people wouldn’t tear that away from me the second I got it either. Wouldn’t it be nice if things would go right? Wouldn’t it be nice if life didn’t try to tear you down every chance it got? Oh well all the what ifs in the world wont change a thing no matter how much we want them to. Life just needs to change, for the better this time.

Today was relatively simple, not much homework or stress. Something new for Mondays and I can honestly say I would not be opposed to having every Monday like this. Or better yet everyday! Wouldn’t that be heaven? Then again knowing me I would get bored. Odd as it may seem, I like having homework every once in a while. I feel productive, which is a must have for me.

Completely off topic: my whole body hurts. I worked out for a little over two hours yesterday and Friday I managed to fall down the stairs. I think my body is beginning to hate me.

I’m so ready for Halloween; it’s going to be a blast this year. I have two friends that are going to dress as pirates with me, and we are going to go trick or treating even though I’m sure we will get lectured for being too old. Personally I think if you are willing to put in the time and effort, you are never too old to trick or treat.

This blog today is just full of random thoughts, then again the other blogs I’ve done don’t have much direction to them either. Oh well it works I guess.

My ideal day

My ideal day would be to wake up early with it pouring rain. Then I would go swim for a while the way my mom, brother and I used to. After that I would come home and find the baggiest, warmest clothes I could and get a huge cup of hot chocolate. That’s when I would get whatever book I was reading at the time and my iPod and escape into whatever world the book portrayed. I could forget all my problems and for once relax. No stress, no worries, just peace and quiet. I would be completely by myself with no one to interrupt me. I would have no homework due, no chores to be done. Absolutely nothing but my book calling on my attention for the day. Then eventually when I needed a break from my book I would wander around for hours in the rain until I was completely drenched and most likely resembled a drown rat. At this point I would head home and take an extremely hot bath and go under water leaving just my nose out and stay there in complete silence. Then I would get out and go to bed listening to the rain beating just outside my window.

Saturday

I find it odd that some days I want to be social, in fact I’m desperate to be social and other days I wake up and all I want to do is be by myself. Yesterday I was complaining about not hanging out with anyone and today when I had the opportunities I turned them down and did things by myself. I went to the mall and people watched. Then I even went to the movies alone. My friends all believe I’m absolutely insane. But sometimes it’s just nice to be able to hang out alone. I enjoy my own company. I get to sit and think and do everything on my own time. Also they believe I am insane due to the fact that I watch horror movies more when I’m alone than when I’m with people. Maybe I’m just way more different that I thought. Everything I do I do different it seems. I wonder why that is. My other family members seem at least relatively normal in their everyday activities. I guess the normal gene missed me completely. Oh well who would want to be normal when being odd is so much more fun anyhow?

Friday

It’s Friday night and would you look at that I’m at home doing homework aren’t I just the party animal. I’m just a blast, can’t you tell? Plus it’s only nine and I am ready for bed. Geeze I need to get a life. Hmm, I wonder how many other nerds are out there just like me, spending their Friday night doing homework. All of us need to unite and be nerds together, and then we could at least say we did something. I wonder if I will ever be the normal teenager that hangs out with friends on nights like this instead of my mother. I guess that might be a stretch though. I can’t even watch t vim stuck with the computer which is my mortal enemy. Computers and I are in an ongoing battle with each other, so far I’m pretty much losing big time. I swear all inanimate objects are plotting against me. Why just today the staircase moved all on its own and made me fall down it. Some people say I’m just a klutz but I know the truth. They are after me, but ill outsmart them. Those doors that move in front of me and even the hair dryer that blew up will regret it! Well there’s my conspiracy theory that makes me sound like I’m schizophrenic.